Underestimated!!!

Okay, I have truly, without the shadow of a doubt, underestimated what it takes to make a blog work! I thought that I would have so much to say; which I think I do, but just lack the motivation and structure on doing it. There are factors that deter me from expanding my blog to what I hope for it to be and they are:

1. Everyone else has cooler blogs (yeah, it's petty, but someone thinks about this the same way). I mean I won't get specific, but I've seen some well constructed blogs out there and it just downright intimidates me on working mine. That will change now.... Look how long it finally took me to create another post! I smell progress in the air!!

2. The concept of thinking that someone has already said what you were trying to say and said it better. That's a copout I'll admit because there are tons of blogs on one particular topic and they all happen to say the same thing with a little dash of different. Wow, I've demolished that one pretty quick.... Moving on!

3. No one cares!!! That bothered me because I want to express my feelings and all that good stuff, but I was hoping that someone would respond to it immediately. When the comment number was still at zero, it didn't crush me, but it did sway me a bit. It's immature to think that I should do my blog solely for comments; true I want your opinions and your feelings, but that should not dictate why I am doing it. My motivation for creating this blog was to document random events in my life and how they made me feel through expressing them using this medium. It's really silly for me to even think about comments and all of that, when I've really only made one post.

So, these are a few solid reasons as to why I have underestimated this process of pushing my blog further into blogdom (I don't think that's a word, but why should that matter with the countless number of new words that appear on the internet at break neck speed). I hope that this a start to changing my complacency and will become an open door to the realm of a better thought out blog. I ask that if you are to actually read what I have to say, that you forgive any grammatical errors that you may encounter and if you feel compelled to critique it, by all means, have at it. I welcome any input that will propel communication forward, because even though this is not a secret, these blogs that we create are a window to communicating with people that we may or may not know, understanding what makes who we are, but most importantly, not underestimate the beauty of it all.

TODAY

Lately I've been feeling really tired coming to work, and I think I need a break.  Life has been really hectic as of late, but slowly everything is going back to somewhat of a sense of normalcy(if that even exist).  I am in the mood to share what I have been listening to today; which really isn't a whole lot, but feel the need to express what's blasting through my speakers.  I am pretty sure most people have heard of this group- Mogwai, a band from Glasgow, Scotland, has released a new album on Matador records called "The Hawk is Howling" which is a bit misleading due to the fact that an eagle graces the cover art.  Anyway, small mistakes aside, this record really says a lot being that it is mostly an instrumental album.  The moods that this band conveys without saying a single word is truly amazing.  It feels like you can paint your own story to the songs and what is even more amazing is that each time you listen to it, it gets better and you start to have favorites.  For instance, one track that grabs me is called "Kings Meadow" and the opening track "I'm Jim Morrison I'm Dead, is pretty strong as well.  The middle of the record has a song that was trying something different, but feels like it drags and not quite sure what to do with itself once it gets to the climactic point, and honestly in my opinion, that is a very minor problem with this record.....  I mean after that track ("The Sun Smells Too Loud" is the name by the way) it gets moving without hesitation.  I read a review of the record at Pitchfork.com and they rated it kind of low, but I love this band anyway and I had to listen to it for myself.  I am not someone who solely goes off of reviews but some of those guys and gals at Pitchfork do have some insightful things to say about how they view and listen to an album.  Well Heroes on G4 is calling me so until next time, blessings and love.